Summer is here

AND I AM NOT!! YES!!!!!!!!!! SCHOOL IS FINALLY FREAKING OVER!!!!!!!!! Summer time freedom no long being in school no pencils no homework no obligitory clapping all that fun stuff. Just me, my friends, and ALOT of things to do

I wish I had kept my mouth shut...

Well sunday came. and believe me it was great. I finally got to see her, for like the first friggin time. But ever since I left shes acted weird. I'm still with her but shes been all sad. and yesterday she said that she was giving up on relationships, love and friends. I didn't get that. Now if you take in the facts, I am most likly the reason for her feeling like that becuase I left. I couldn't stay (says my mum) becuse she lives like 2 hours away, nows its gonna be 7-9 hours because shes moving. Now heres the probelm. I love her more than anything, and seeing her like this kills me. Because you know everyone is unique and no one is ever like anyone else. Which means if she leaves me I'll be so heartbroken I don't think I could stand it. She needs to know that giving up on emotions is the wrong thing to do. she needs to know that shes worth more than this

Sunday! SUNDAY!! SUNDAY!!!

I know tons of people say that but this time I'm exicted. I get to go down to a new church thing (not my church) and YAY peole I've never met before!! Its great to make new friends (even though I suck at that and all my relationships happen by accident)
But thats a good 48 hours away or so. Rawr why does everthing take so long?!

Does it always have to be me?

I swear. we are |-| that close to finals. I have way to much test anexiety for the math final! Does it always hjave to be math!!? I understand math but there is always SOMETHING that I miss. and that gives me a bad grade!!
Ugh I just want to pass this year, becuse summer school is not a good idea. Whoever invented summer school was broken in the HEAD. What were they on? Meth and crack? Ughhhhhhhh itsa not fair, then come this person who says "life isnt fair" okay buddy, you live me life THEN we'll talk about fair. I hate math, its completely arbitrary! What does it have to do with my life?! Singing doesn't require math, getting married doesn't require math, everything you do in your everyday life doesn't require math!!! So just for once I'd like to see everyone realise the genius behind what I'm saying. crap crap crap, I wish that I didn't have to do this, but nevertheless I have to anyway. bloddyyyy hellll

I hate today

Well today during 5tyh hour I realised that on my math test I got a 40% out of 100 and I was like....CRAP! So anyways I was in a bad mood to begin withy, we're very close to finals, I have WAY too much test anexiety and blah blah blah blah!!!
Grrrrrrrrr nothiing ever goes that way I would like it to go

Mortal Treason- War Within

Stand, stand up, stand up.
Salute Him as your king.
The Lord who reigns over heaven and over earth.
Yea, you can't ignore it.
Why, it's in your head.
Now, you can't forget it.
Why, it's all been said.
Pushing, it's coming.
Rising, laughing in my face.
My head is spinning.
Lord help me please.
I need you now.
Come into life.
The time stops.
It rises.
Now is your time.
He suffered for your sins.
He'll suffer again.
He suffered.
He suffered.
Now I feel it racing in my mind.
Stop it.
You can't take this inside.
Why do you run and hide?
His blood it flows freely from His hands tonight.
Take it or leave it.
True love is hard to find.

End Result

Well, I've been at the apartment with no computer and no iPod for like 3 days now. No computer is okay. No iPod is a different story. I always ALWAYS listen to that thing and becuase its at m'dads I DONT HAVE IT. Now that SUCKS. If you know me (which hopefully you don't) I listen to that thing during school alot, and now since I dont have it, I might go insane. grrrrrrrr, annoying.
Then only reason is listen to it is becvuase of, well, girls and crap.
Oh and by the way, after I am able to get on my computer, myyearbook account is gonna have like, what? oh say maybe 300 SAs'
Yes, it is VERY annoying

Shouldn't happen

believe it or not my mum is fed up with m'dad. So shes moving out to an apartment and that means me and m'sister are going to be switching between houses. I never expected this to happen. Talk about dumb luck. Blehhhh I get the short end of the stick every time. but hey, thats life I guess

Final Exams

That word days it all
tests, studying, panic, disaster, forgetting to feed your dog, hair falling out, brain fry, (For girls it something like "I forgot to put on my makeup" or whatever)
I just got my Algebra I study gude and its 100 something probelms long FROM THE BEGGINIONG OF THE FREAKING YEAR!!!
Oh, WOW this is going to KILL ME!
I hope you guys have something better preped for your school. unlike me.
So go on, laugh if you will but I still have a dog. and if you hate dogs...WHATS WRONG WITH YOU?!
Anyways buh-bye now.
Being daft as I am I wont study at all...

This is all Bethoveens fault

Oh WOW, I got in trouble today for my previous blog. Not very nice and whatevers but that was like a few hours ago ha he ha he hawwwww. <------ Not really. Now my parents get to know about it an possibly moar counsiling. Grrrrr, I just wiah they didn't have to know becuase my dad is like overreaction central sometimes. My mum would give me a warning but not my dad. I'm gonna stop before i get too far into that subject. I'm dreadin when I get home because the VP mustave called my mum or my dad by now (hopefully my mum because she knows how to handle things) So basicly I'm heading up the river. Mostly. Ugh, buggernuts, I hope my dad doesn't --NO!! END SENTENCE BEGIN ANEW!!! Well itsa lunch and I dont have a lunch but thats okay, well, actually no its not. I'm under weight, ehhhhh... Yeah so I can feel my stomach, I THINK thats a bad thing, I dunno. Oh snap. Tweetle de and tweetle dumb just walked in. These are the first two yahoos' who made fun of my previous blog. and and tweetle bumbest just walked in like right now. I'm gonna need to stop typeing.
P.S. The picture at the top of my blog is my mini-me
P.P.S I don't play the violen tyvm
P.P.P.S CHEESE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Burning Bridges

everyone knows it hard but i now it more than anyone else. will post later